Thursday 17 April 2014

Blog Tour ~ Review, Teaser & Giveaway ~ Because of Kian by Sibylla Matilde

Book Description:

***** Mature Content, Abuse, Sexual Situations, Adult Situations, Strong Language *****

I know I’m twisted. Growing up in a perfectly well-adjusted home, I don’t really have an excuse. But no matter… I realize how messed up I am. And therapy can only do so much.

I pushed my boyfriend to violence, a violence he couldn't control. Sickly, I almost liked it. So I pushed him more. Before long, the pain outweighed the pleasure and the loss I sustained shattered me. So I ran. I’m now a bit shell-shocked harboring a lot of guilt. My boyfriend is now my ex and wants revenge. He wants me to pay for turning him into the monster he’s become. And I still have a deviant yearning that I don’t understand. My own monster inside… my own demon to battle.

I can’t get close to anyone. I can’t give in and scratch that itch. I can’t wreck someone else.

And now there is Kian… my rescuer on a dark, painful night. He sees through my pretense. He tries to pull me from my frightened isolation, to keep me from becoming a victim. He forces me to face my warped desires and shows me that pain doesn’t really have to truly hurt.

He wants to show me a way to serenity. But I am afraid… Will I ruin a good man?
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**ARC Received for honest review**

Reviewed by Donna ~ 3.5 Stars

“…nobody’s as together as they seem. Everyone has skeletons in their closet and monsters under their bed.”

I loved the premise of this book, I did enjoy the story and I loved Kian. Personally I just felt that this book moved a bit too quick, it is fast paced but sometimes the problem with this is that substance is a casualty. I would have loved to have learned more about Brynn, especially pre Kian and I just feel that knowing more about her would have enabled me to connect better with her. I just felt that little bit disconnected with Brynn. She did start to warm towards the end though and I really did enjoy the story despite the above.

“…I wanted to be wanted.”

Kian was totally and utterly adorable, a knight in shining armour coming to the rescue of his damsel in distress, he should have rode in on horseback, but instead drives a motorbike!! He felt a connection to Brynn but needed to play it cool and be discrete. He had been watching her for a while but could tell that she was not in the right frame of mind for a relationship. He used to see her at the club and couldn’t help but watch out for her. He was fiercely protective, extremely passionate and a little bit kinky!! Thank God he was watching out for her because if he wasn’t we could have been reading an entirely different book.

“Every time she made my fingertips ache to touch her. She made my heart ache to love her.”

After his rescue mission, Kian tries to break through to Brynn but Brynn, having escaped an abusive relationship is slow to trust and let any man in but Kian has perseverance and staying power. An instructor in self-defence Kian persuades Brynn to have some one on one lessons so that she can be prepared in future, but will one on one lead to more one on one of a totally different nature? Kian at least hopes so!

“No matter how hard you try to pull away. You’ll never convince me that I’m better off without you. Because I’m shit without you…I’ll fight for you, even if it means fighting you for you.”

Brynn has had a troubled past and we are treated to a little of this throughout the book, however, I wanted and needed to know more. She had many problems and I just thought that these needed to be explored a bit more with a bit more detail. I did feel sorry for her, but I should have felt emotional and I lacked that emotional connection with her. My heart broke for her in places, I was egging her on to let Kian in and just wanted to sit back and watch the fireworks, with Kian, you knew there would be fireworks once they did get together. They did have chemistry; I did feel the underlying attraction and Kian being the person that he was made this book for me. He was understanding, patient, sincere, kind and thoughtful, despite his own problems and his own past. He was in short, adorable, despite his man-whorish past.

“…because I had a deviant, masochistic side that brought out the monster in men.”

This is a story about learning to leave the past behind, overcoming fears, finding that inner strength and not letting that past determine your future. It is about learning to trust and live again, letting love in and giving it back but most of all it is about survival.

“I can now feel pain without shutting down. I can now feel love without freezing in fear. I can now be who I am without shame.”

This was a great story that I loved and I really enjoyed, but being the emotional person that I am, I was greedy and wanted that little bit more, but none the less, it was a fab read.

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About the Author

Sibylla Matilde grew up in the mountain valleys of Southwest Montana exploring the dusty Old West gold country on the back of a horse. She attended a two-room schoolhouse beginning in 1st grade & had the same teacher until she changed schools after 7th. Beginning at about age 12, Sibylla discovered historical romance, feeding off of work of Jude Deveraux & Lisa Kleypas. She loves a book that can make the reader run the gamut of emotions, from the sweet glow of new love to gut-wrenching heartache. She is a true romantic & always has stories floating around in her head, living in a fantasyland until she writes them down to free them. Music is her emotional trigger. Growing up with a Wagnarian-loving mother, Sibylla was raised to treasure music that digs deep into the psyche, drawing out elation, sorrow, grief, desire. The soundtrack to her life includes many genres spanning centuries. She looooooooves Thirty Seconds to Mars (rather obsessively, actually... but, really, how can you NOT be crazy about this guy!? Jared Leto. Shhh. ) & pimps them out to all her friends through Spotify. She also delights in Met Opera HD broadcasts at her local movie theater & hopes (listening Met?) to someday see Diana Damrau reprise her role as Mozart’s Queen of the Night in Die Zauberflöte.

Sibylla lives with her husband and hero who saved her from her own calamitous, young-adult self. He makes her laugh daily, even when things are tough. He's proved to her that love really can heal a shattered soul. In 18 years, they have never had a fight, although argue regularly with their two teenage kids who have, unfortunately, inherited their father’s quick wit (unfortunate as it is a quick wit that Sibylla, herself, definitely does not possess – there is a reason she is a writer & not a stand-up comedian). They live a quiet life with their two weird little rescued Chiweenies. Wait… teenagers & little yap-dogs? OK, maybe not so quiet.
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  1. Sounds like an interesting book.

  2. The book description sounds really interesting.

  3. The story reminds me a lot of my husband & I when we met & fell in love. Not the same set of circumstances but the same premise. A strong loving man & a woman who was damaged inside.