I always go in with a plan. A set of rules for myself. I don't take unnecessary risks. That's how I've been able to evade capture all these years.
But there's something about this girl that is different than the others. When I finally meet her, the rules become a blur. And I break the most important one of all--I take her with me.
It's just my imagination--that feeling of being watched. That those icy eyes-- a vivid turquoise with a distinct golden fleck--aren't watching me.
It's just stress. I am the person everyone relies on. Maybe that's why I haven't been feeling so content with my life lately. Why I dream those eyes belong to someone who can tear me away from all of my responsibilities.
But these are just shameful fantasies, never meant to breach reality.
Then one night, the dream comes true, only it's a horrific nightmare.
Now, I only have one task: survival.
Trigger warning: If you need one, this is really not the book for you.
Reviewed by Donna ~ 4 stars
“There are no heroes in this world, only villains and victims.”
While this is not the darkest book I have read, it is certainly dark and will contain triggers for some. But seeing as I can read almost anything and I have read some dark shit this one didn’t seem to bother me as much as I expected, but there are some definite moments where Nina G Jones pushes you to your limit and she just keeps pressing. This book contains some fucked up shit, it will have you questioning your own morals, your own sanity and yet you will have to turn those pages…this author is the master manipulator herself…each word is like crack…you need more…and more…and more…until you reach the end and then you just sit there in shock, wondering what the hell you just read…and then questioning why you loved it. Did I condone it…definitely not…did I understand the whys…to an extent…did I like the “anti-hero” …errr I plead the fifth.
“Girls like her don't want the beast. They want the idea of one. They want to be safe and still revel in the thrill. But there's no safety with a monster. Because monsters consume. They take your body, your soul, and your innocence.”
This was dark and depraved and exceedingly immoral at times and yet as much as I should have hated Sam…I couldn’t and that is the scariest part about it. When an anti-hero is sick and twisted, a psychopath, evil personified and yet I understood him…yes, that it is right…I understood him!!! WTH!!! I love my crime programmes and my team at Quantico would have loved this one…this was just out of an episode of Criminal Minds and I could just imagine Hotch saying “wheels up in twenty.” Nina G Jones wrote Sam to perfection, she perfectly captured the bitter, twisted and evil and yet she gave him a heart, even though it was as black as they came…but there was a tinge of red there and it was this tinge that was portrayed perfectly and had you questioning your own sanity.
“I am the person who has nothing to lose but you... And you…are my obsession.”
Sam was a hunter, the evil of the night that stalked and preyed on unsuspecting women until it was too late. He took everything and gave nothing…not even their homes were safe. He was clever, he was calculating, he was like a ghost, uncatchable, unidentifiable, untraceable…he was there…then he wasn’t…until he found the one he couldn’t leave.
“That is a high that love can't touch. Love is a slow burn, a stockpot simmering to soften the heart. But this—this is a flash flood, it's the smoke billowing when a steak hits a hot pan.”
I am not going to say anything about this story, this is one that you need to go into blind and expect the unexpected. Prepare to be tested, prepare to open your mind, prepare to question everything you believe in, prepare to question your own morality as Nina G Jones manipulates and bends every moral you have, your sanity and your heart to suit her own gain.
“He likes the taste of my sadness and I like when he injects me with his venom. He is my danger, my greatest threat.”
Nina G Jones wrote Sam to perfection and there were elements to his past that I could clearly relate, one of his issues I had myself and I think it is this that made him human. I could relate to his past, I could sympathise and empathise with his childhood but I could not condone his actions. It is this that splits you in half, your head telling you one thing and your empathetic self telling you another. What is a mind to do? I love a book that challenges me, I love a book that makes me think and this book did just that. This book had me thinking about it for days after and these characters still won’t leave my muddled mind. So kudos to Nina G Jones. For those that have no boundaries, this is a fantastic read.
“You don't stare the devil in the eyes and come out without some of his sin. You can't beat the devil without becoming like him. You can't appeal to his kindness, so you have to learn to play his games. You lie, you fuck, you manipulate, you fight, you hurl insults, until you do whatever it takes to win the battle.”